Well, folks it truly was a golden birthday for me.
Why, you ask?
For the first time since I can remember I wasn't depressed about it.
Usually I go into a major down swing around my birthday because of all the adoption stuff.
I think about Ana and how she felt so many years ago on that day.
Did she love me?
Did she hate me?
Did she just want me out of her sight?
Or did she embrace me in her arms?
Those are the kinds of questions that always ran through my mind.
Being free of that burden has me overjoyed!
It was nice not to have a dark cloud hanging over me on my birthday.
What a fucking relief.
In other related news...
I'm considering beginning a search for Ana.
I feel like I'm in a very stable spot and could handle whatever happens.
What do you think?
XOXO,
Allie
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